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From Aizat’s blog regarding this post :

So, yeah. Now let’s see who do I want to tag? Khurshid, Yuhi, Kakashin, and Adib!

Wonderful. Oh well, at least there is an update now.

Let’s see….

Yes, March seems to be the month of accidents. No, I’m not talking just about myself, people around me also seems to be involed in accidents. I don’t understand, it’s like even worse than last year.

Last year, I got involved in a small accident, then I heard Li Sa fell down from her motorbike. This year, I got involve in a bigger one, then Shin Dee got involved in an accident ( small one ). Later, at my work place, I heard from my friends that they got involve in an accident too, small and big.

Is it a curse or something ? Some people say that we are not careful drivers, but somehow I don’t think that’s the case. Have you been involved in an accident recently ?

Well, Games Anime Comic Circle returns once again, and the timing couldn’t have been better. I was just traumatized by the recent accident that happened to me, so I need something to get my mind off it. Imagine, every moment I keep remembering it. Yeah, maybe I’m overreacting and dramatic, heh. :p I’m glad that it turned out so well, in fact better than last year, though there were some areas which could be improved. The sad thing about this year GACC is that I just sat at the same place the whole day for the first day, and some ass ruined my mood on the second day, and it was during the cosplay competition finals. It ruined my mood till the end of the show, and made me ‘emo’, like how Adib put it. Another thing that was sad for me was the fact I wasn’t there from the beginning to join them like last year. I was more of helper than a committee, for I would love to be involved in GACC. It was something that I helped create along with my friends, so it sadden me when all I could do is help them during this time, but not during the beginning phase. Nevertheless, I still enjoyed myself during GACC’07.

Anyway, enough of babbling, let me take you to GACC’07 !

P/S: Why do I have a feeling that only Adib, Nazrin and I will make a post about GACC ? =.=
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Yes, today is one of the most stressful days of my life. I offically went to work today, hoping that it would take my mind of the accident. But…

“Hey, hows your car ?”

“Hey, I heard you got into an accident ?”

“So, how did it happend ?”

…

Great. Oh well, I guess there is no harm in people asking me.

I had to go to UITM Segamat for a job there. I went there with my senior. Along the way, there was an accident, involving a Kancil and a lorry. I saw a dead body covered with a white cloth on the road.

Oh god, this can’t be good. I’m starting to have flashbacks. Calm down, accidents happens everywhere. Switch on the radio to hear some music.

“Accidents happens if you don’t stop on red”

“Accident advertisments..”

…

GREAT !

Bah, try getting it of my mind, I continue working.

Then I got a SMS from the person involved in the accident, saying he send the motorbike to the workshop for repairs. He estimated the cost of repairs for both motorbikes is around RM 2k, not including if there are damages inside.

MORE FLASHBACKS.

…What the heck ? Stop reminding of the accident !!!

On the way back…the radio keeps on advertising about accidents. GREAT !

Then, I had a call from home. My brother hasn’t got back from school ( extra class for UPSR students ). One of his friends said he went back with someone. My sister was suppose to pick him up.

OH CRAP. OH SHIT. HAS MY BROTHER BEEN KIPNAPPED ????

Stress meter offically reached critical / danger zone.

Later I got a call from home, saying that actually my brother went out with his friends to Padang Pahlawan Mall.

…

…Dammit.

After work, went back home, shower, and sleep.

This is one of the most stressful days of my life. GACC, you better not dissapoint me.

Yeah…I’m feeling guilt, and I’m depress.

I just got involve in an accident yesterday night, around 11.15pm. Yeah, my car hit two motorcyclist. Lucky the guy only suffer from minor injuries, but I had to bring him to hospital. No, I don’t want to even discuss how it happened…ask me later.

Right now I feel…depress. I’m so shocked, and sad.

I ALMOST KILLED A PERSON.

I ALMOST KILLED A PERSON.

I ALMOST KILLED A PERSON.

These words kept ringing in my head. Right now I’m just too depress, that I might not even go GACC, even I got a green light from my boss. You guys know how I take things waaay to seriously.

Heh, funny thing is, it happend on March. The same month like last year, where I was involve in a small accident too. This year its bigger.

I…don’t know what to say…I trouble my dad, had to call him for help…I’m so useless…I can’t even take care of my own self. Even though it was my fault, my dad just kept saying to me “It’s okay.” How can I not be brought to tears ? How can I not feel guilty ?

Here’s the picture of the car after the aftermath, if anyone is even bothered :

You know I need now ? Some oultet to let all this feelings out. Some True friends who would support or make me feel better, not come to my face and say “I told you so next time you should drive slowly, but no.” or would just love to make me feel bad for what I have done.

I hate this. I really do.

If your worried about me because of the previous post, don’t worry. I’m not going to do anything crazy…yet. Everything has been settled, sort of.

Plans for March 2006 !

1. Get more RM !!
- I need money, meaning I need to come everyday to work for the extra RM 50. Yea, I got my pay, and damn it feels good to get money after hard work.

2. Try to come to GACC.
- It happens to be that day I will be in KL teaching a bunch of teachers how to use IT stuffs. I will be going from Friday night till Sunday night. Urghh…still trying to negotiate with my supervisor…T.T If not, oh well. I won’t be that upset if I can’t go, since I know the event is going to be a blast and a success. That’s the most important thing, but that doesn’t mean I’m not trying to go to GACC ! =.=

3. Try to find a new monitor which is cheap and good.
Still finding it. The one that you guys recommended me was why beyond my dad’s budget ( WHA ? ). Geh…now I have to find again…T__T

4. Hangout more with my friends
Geh. I’m so leftout from interesting news. I just knew 2 days ago that Shin Dee is going to Japan, and everyone told me it was OLD NEWS. I just knew that Dexter had Nokia N930, and thats OLD NEWS too. I want to be updated ! But then people say I’m bothering them…>__>

Oh well, these are among my plans for March. See ya !

P/S: Looks like the trip that I plan to go with everyone is going to be cancelled, since most of them have their own plans… =.=
P/S2: Working on Li Sa’s birthday party post.

Everyone has their limit, so do I. For my friends who knows me, I am one person who have tolerated with everything they’ve thrown at me. Sometimes the jokes they give me hurts, but I kept smilling and act like its okay. Some of them might not notice, but I’m a very sensitive person. Sometimes even when their is a problem and the mistake is obviously theirs, I admit its mine. I cover up for people. I let people looked down upon me so everyone can be happy. I let people make a fool out of me so everyone can be happy. I let people unleashed the dragon and allowed them to thinking their right I’m wrong.

All I wanted to be was a nice guy.

A friend.

I kept slient for so long. I thought it wouldn’t bother me, but who am I fooling. I’m the one who is sufering. Yet, I still continue to keep quiet.

Not anymore.

I feel like I can’t keep up anymore.

I am at my limit. I can’t keep on like this.

Why does people treat me like this ? Its it wrong to be a nice person ? Why do people take my feelings and emotions for granted ? Why ? WHY ???

Right now I really feel like pulling my hair, ripping my skin of my flesh, kill and beheaded people while I play and laugh like a madman in their pool of blood.

I will not promise anything, but this is the last time, THE LAST TIME I will give a chance. If it remains the same, if I am treated the same way…

…

Then thank you for everything, farewell, and goodbye.

First of all, happy birthday to my little brother shafik ! Your 12 years old now eh ? Good for you. ^^ Hope you will live a happy life in the future to come, and achieve whatever you dream.

Next, Li Sa ! Happy birthday gal ! Your 21 years old now eh ? Should I call you Li Sa or Kak Li Sa ? XDXD I hope you too will a happy life in the future, and achieve your dreams and goals kay ? ;D See you tonight at the birthday party !